John and I have been engaged for 7 months, come this Wednesday I will have the first and only thing (other than my ring) done for the wedding: My wedding dress will be paid off. That's it.
See, we've been running into some financial difficulties with moving and my job being slow in the summer. Meaning wedding details had to take a back burner and now I feel like we're running out of time to pay for things...like our honeymoon...and the venue, which we haven't even put deposits down on yet.
After some consideration we decided to move the wedding. Again. For the second time. Now I had some issues in the beginning planning stages feeling like I HAD to do certain things. This idea stuck with me through the planning process so I ended up changing things not once, not twice, now not even THREE times. This will be the fourth time we've entirely changed the wedding theme and colors. The one constant is that it will be a casual affair, because that's just who we are. I'm starting to feel like I'm overwhelming our wedding party with the changes to everything. Making them nervous to purchase anything or even just irritated at my lack of ability to make a final choice.
Don't get me wrong, it's been valid every time we've made a change. Its been financial problems. The first venue we chose wanted us to get married at 7:30 am, or charge us an arm and a leg to have it later. So we eventually made it a lazy beach wedding because the aquarium was too far away to keep our budget down and too stressful to plan a more formal event, so an informal and fun wedding next summer sounded perfect. However, even though the cost is decreased we don't have enough time to pay off a venue without sacrificing bills, the dogs care and groceries. So we've made the choice to move it out six months and have a winter wedding, enough time to get on our feet and pay off a nice venue while also cutting costs more since it's off season. Even our honeymoon of we go after chirstmas will oat less.
In my head this makes more sense and sounds more like us with all the cozy sweaters, hot chocolate and Christmas music. It's the same way a breezy summer beach wedding sounds like us. But more within reach and less overdone and like something my mom would want more than I would. I'm stressing so much about it, I'm actually worried to tell our friends we changed wedding stuff. Agian. I almost want to elope. Almost.
More posts will be up soon, as well as an actual update and even some videos. We're setting up from the move and should have internet in a month or so. So stay tuned.
-Courtney
